Looking for a Friend

I know it's Thanksgiving. I have much to be thankful for, but right now I need someone's shoulder to cry on.

It seems no matter what I do, I'm always put on the back burner because the mistakes and screwups of others. I have to cancel things I'd planned, give up days when I could work, and sacrifice time helping them out - only to have them shove things in my face, take away the few things I enjoy and make life one miserable circle of Dante.

Then, when I think about all of this I feel like a complete jerk. As though I sholdn't be complaining because of what has happened. I feel like I'm acting like an entitled brat who doesn't deserve this because 'the other person is doing something better'. Then I feel like crap all over again.

It's this neverending cycle of 'what am I doing wrong', and 'why am I the one crying'?


There's no one I can turn to - so I'm just looking for a friend right now. Someone who doesn't know me, who can tell me things will somehow work out even though they're completely screwed up and life just completely sucks and this entire year has been nothing but huge beat down until I'm so far in the dirt I don't know which way is up.



Just, looking for a friend.